Fractures of Times

EDITION

2022, Shortlisted

school

Pannafoto Institute,
Indonesia

When I think of myself, I see puzzles. Or perhaps it’s only me, still finding myself. People might have ideas about me, and they can label me. But they will never fully live inside of me or experience who I am. In my 22 years of living experience, I am still unsure how I would describe myself and know who I completely am or who I’m going to be. One thing I’m sure of is that I am a fragment of time in my life. My experiences of the past, present, and longing for the future impacted how I think, feel, experience, and “see” the world I live in today. In this project, I examine these fragments of my life and reflect on them in a series of photographs. Stories about my gender identity, childhood memories and trauma, places that hold bad memories, traumas, mental conditions, hope, and dreams emerged. I experimented with different visual approaches and processes, such as self-portraits, mix-media, digital imaging, and archive photos and notes, to construct these fractures of myself.

These approaches and processes are quite new to me, but they reveal a variety of myselfs and life itself. The ending of this project is still unknown for me. I see myself still gathering pieces and pieces of myself every day. I believe I’m still changing and developing. Thus, I will be continuing this series and letting it unfold.